May 19, 2009

mute

it would almost be easier to talk to You if You were only half listening
like everyone else
like i assume You are

and me with my new type of perjury
lying thickly to the teary child face
still poised on Your knee
still attached to me

but sometimes, faintly
i know i've slipped away from the cruel falsehood
of Your diverted attention
and arrive breathless from fleeing

i cant remember what i came here to say 
now that i believe 
in Your nearness

but how can anyone be awkward around You?
how can anyone feel at a loss with You?

maybe i didnt lose my words and my thoughts
maybe i just dont need them.

finally surprisedly willingly confined in what i came for
realizing that it was 

just 
and simply
You 

this whole time

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